For over a decade, I have been on a profound journey of transformation and discovery.
Back in 2015 I was suffering from fatigue and neurological symptoms. A successful student at college, inside I felt detached and scared of who I was. Growing up, I had been diagnosed with ADHD, mood instability, and Autism Spectrum disorder. Already coming through a lot of “successes” as a teenager, I was determined to live life to the fullest. I compartmentalized myself into the good parts, and the bad parts; the talents and the problems. I was at war constantly with my “problems” and “weaknesses.” But my soul, my body, and the divine – they had other ideas! They craved harmony… I was in college, on a varsity sports team, running clubs, etc. On the outside I was a picture of miraculous success. But on the inside, I was scared, confused, and full of horribly painful and limiting beliefs about who I was.
One night, at the onset of a serious episode of neurological disease, I had a profound spiritual experience. I experienced what they call the four levels, or dimensions, of consciousness, and returned with a stark awareness of who I really am – a daughter of the divine, a human BEING. I knew deep inside of myself that all of the ideas and theories that I had acquired about myself and how to control my thoughts and feelings – they were false and did not describe ME. In their place, I invited certainty about who I was – a human being, with the ability and power to live and function: naturally, in flow, in authenticity.
At first, I was met with fear by relatives. But the profoundness of my resolution has healed me, has let me to a sense of ease in my day to day. Joy for being alive gives me love, a loving relationship with family, independence, and health,. I have traveled and learned a second language.
I live in a remote community in central Asia, where I have my own ceramics studio, healing practice, and garden. Inspired deeply by nature, I love quiet and wild spaces. In the ancient homeland of my ancestors, I come to terms with the history that led us all to these current times. I integrate with this place, and I attain a transcendant peace within myself. I am doing my part in creating peace in the world.
As in the Chinese proverb –
If there is Peace in the Heart,
then there will be peace in the Home
If there is peace in the Home,
Then there will be peace in the village
If there is peace in the village,
Then there will be peace in the world.
Being In Tune 